“Whatever you’re meant to do, do it now. Conditions are always impossible.“ Doris Lessing
photo credit: the beautiful Sara Parra, Esencia Dance Company, Los Alamitos, California
As artists, we are called to be performers. This is an inner call, an artistic obligation, and a social expectation. But I think I’m not alone in having some inner conflict about performance. So much of the creative process is intensely solitary. In an ideal world, like Casals’ proclamation that he only felt ready to share his Bach after 80, we would only share our process after it has yielded rich fruit and it feels like a natural continuation of our personal exploration to do so. But that’s actually neither realistic nor even productive. In order to feed our fire, creatively and motivationally, we need the pressure of imminent exposure. Nothing is EVER “ready,” but the process of preparation is a huge incentive to creativity. Additionally, the sharing itself, as traumatic as it can often be, yields fresh insights into our strengths and weaknesses. I’m not really pontificating about something that is novel to any creative, just acknowledging this constant inner conflict- an act that is itself kind of liberating and motivating.